by Forestgal » Wed Jun 22, 2011 11:15 pm
It'll get better. But it'll take time.
Five years ago I had to do much the same thing with my first dog. Long story short ... she got sick on a Thursday, we didn't know what was wrong with her, and by the following Wednesday I'd gotten a call in the middle of teaching my 35 fifth graders that she was bleeding internally. I left class, raced to the vet, and held her as she was put down. I don't know how I did it, but I did. I think the knowledge that I'd been given the awesome, awful charge to put her needs above mine was the only thing that allowed me to put one foot in front of another.
I still cry for her, even as I hold Jed. You will too, for a long, long time. It's okay. They're the only creature in the whole wide world that loves us unconditionally, so there's just not the emotional baggage we have when we lose a human.
It's good that you came home. You both can cry, and in between talk about the sweet times you shared with your pup.
It'll get better, I promise.
Laura -- and Jed