Feeling anxious, tired and thankful...all at one time

[ali1257]

Hello ladies

Feeling kinda anxious today yet trying to feel thankful and am tired. I know why I am tired i woke up at 6:10 a.m. and couldn't go back to sleep. So I spent time reading, writing and reflecting. Posted a story on my blog called "Walking the Dog, Walking with God." Partly to remind myself that I am not alone in my life's journey. You can check it out using the link at my signature.

I am feeling anxious because of how the Christmas tree sales are going or should I say not going. We thought we had a good weekend, 17 trees on Saturday and 25 on Sunday and about 15 the last three days. Then we were told most weekends sales are usually 50+ trees each day ~ kinda depressing. I know we have two more full weekends before Christmas but that doesn't calm the anxiousness of did we do the right thing taking on this job of selling Christmas trees. I am thankful we have this job at least it is a job.

I think part of my problem is that we are not doing any of the things we normally do at Christmas time....going to church services, helping with the Living Nativity or packing/handing out dinner boxes to the community...all these things that are part of our Christmases in the past. This year is so different...no church services as we have to be on the lot from 10 to 10 M to F, 8 to 10 on Saturday and 8 to 9 on Sunday. I keep reminding myself that we will be going to a Christmas Eve service...just don't know where or what time.

Guess I should get off here before I start bawling. I think I will think about dinner. Eating is always good. Maybe I have a brownie mix that I could bake up.

Thanks for listening! Will check in again soon.

[mitch5252]

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Ali, I'm so sorry you're feeling sad. Just think - the Christmas tree sales thing is almost over, and you know God is walking right by your side. It's been a learning experience for you two, and next year, you can make your Christmas different.

Until then, God will renew your strength in the comfort of His embrace.

Sleep tight. And don't let the bedbugs...oh, never mind on that part.

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[retiredhappy]

Hang in there Ali; you're doing what you have to do right now and God understands what you're going through. Let him be your strength.

[Liz]

What Mitch & Karen said....well, except the part about bed bugs...eww.

[AlmostThere]

I thought of you two last night and prayed to keep you two safe when they told on the Portland news that someone robbed the people running a Christmas tree lot. This lot has been in that spot for over 25 years and is run by the mentally challenged. Can you imagine someone taking advantage of them, and at this time of year, too!?!? Breaks my heart.
Know that we on the forum are sending prayers, love and good thoughts every day!

[avalen]

not to worry, things will pick up, its still early for Christmas trees, but next weekend
the folks will start coming out and picking out a tree. I never used to put my tree up
until a week and a half before Christmas cause I didn't want it to get to crispy dried
out by Christmas day. Trust in God, he's there for ya, and we're here for ya too so
you can vent anytime you want.

[Mollysmom]

Sorry to hear things aren't going that great for you - sounds like it's a very stressful time.
Try to remember that even though things aren't going the way you want them to go, they're going the way they're suppose to go. Just because the tree selling isn't going well, you're learning some very important things. Things like what's really important to you, going to church services, serving the community, etc. Next time you can try and find work that will allow you to do those things.
I read a quote that says "If you're going through Hell, keep going" !!! (sorry - can't remember who said that) Guess what I'm saying is, you're in it now so just keep plugging along and know that it'll get better and next time you can make a more informed decision ! These "learning the hard way" lesson are a bitch, but they stick with you.
Hang tough and do your best to enjoy the situation - might as well !!

[bikerchic777]

I'm with ya, girl! I have been wondering if I made the right decision in coming here ever since I got here. Looking for another part time job is a full time job in itself. I have been praying so hard about it and have finally stopped feeling depressed and anxious. Thank you, God If I start to feel that way, I keep saying out loud, "let go and let God", one of Barbie's favorites. He is the one in control and I need to remember that. You will soon be finished with your job there. I have until April When I feel homesick I look at the weather forecast for IA Helps me appreciate AZ more I am usually providing meal baskets and gifts for kids, serving Thanksgiving and Christmas dinner to the homeless, etc. I don't have money to help others this year, let alone send my grandkids something (it's a first for me), but I can help somehow. I have left messages at a couple of food pantries to volunteer. I should be able to find out where there is a meal being served and volunteer there, too. When you volunteer, you get to eat, too. It's nice to meet and hear others' stories. Makes me thankful for what I do have Your faith will see you through! I will pray for you, too!!!

[BirdbyBird]

(((((Hugs))))))) be thinking of you both. This too shall pass.... Sometimes we learn valuable things about ourselves the hard way...... and as you already know..you have many blessings....think on those....and let you heart be cheered.... then again as you slog your way through until 12-25-10....drop by here and vent....

[Echo]

Smile Ali. I know it's hard but remember every step has a plan and is leading somewhere!

You and Ron will make it! {{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}