Good morning gals.
I will keep this very long story brief...
In spite of all your good advice, I bought that RV and it turned into a huge fiasco! I can't go into details right now but the whole situation caused me to have a severe anxiety attack last Saturday that turned into a full-blown panic attack by evening. I ended up calling 911 and getting taken by ambulance to the hospital that night. Unfortunately, I had an even more traumatic experience there with the horrible way I was treated while trying to get some help, as I began to hyperventilating. While in the waiting room, I got up and told someone I was feeling like I was going to pass out. The lady told me to go sit back down. I asked if I could get someone to assist me. She ordered me loudly to go sit down NOW!! I turned around and passed out hitting my head on the floor (which made me come to). I was given a Valium and put in a wheel chair and moved to a hallway. Once I calmed down, they just sent home before I even got to see a doctor. That experience didn't help my anxiety any, for sure!
I have since been having frequent anxiety attacks about this whole situation, especially first thing when I wake up in the morning. I did get some meds to help calm me down but they also make me sleepy. After a lot of frustration, lies, deceit, and money, I finally got the RV towed out here and is safely in a space down the street from my park model.
For now, I am getting ready to go to Tucson to be with my brother and SIL for his surgery on Wednesday. I will deal with the RV when I get back home next weekend. I am hoping this trip will help distract me and calm me down some. I lost 5 pounds in the last week from not eating due to the stress. I am now forcing myself to eat 3 times per day to build up my strength and energy.
I am not ready to talk more about this situation on here, but maybe will later on. I learned a big, hard lesson and take full responsibility for what happened.
For today, I need to do some laundry and pack.