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by **monik7** » Tue Jul 28, 2015 7:29 pm

At 9:30 pm PDT tonight it will be 20 years since I last saw and talked to my son Joshua Anthony. Four and a half hours later he was murdered by 3 losers. I have no family except my daughter and she's on a fun-filled vacation in Kauai so I doubt we will talk any time soon. So I decided to express my feelings of loss to my forum family. I hope you don't mind.

Joshua and his friend David were walking to David's apartment when they were attacked and robbed by 3 gang members on a crime spree. Joshua gave them the $17 he had and they proceeded to shoot both Joshua and David. Joshua died almost instantly, David survived. Twenty years or twenty minutes, it makes no difference. The pain and loss are still the same. All day today, through the night and tomorrow I will remember everything that happened on July 29, 1995, the three-year nightmare waiting in hopes of being able to put those three murderers in prison, and now attending parole hearings for them. I would have never imagined that I would have to go inside an actual prison. When a parent loses a child, the loss is unfathomable. EVERY DAY the mind repeats what happened in an unending horror story.

Joshua lost a promising life. In 4 1/2 months he would have graduated from University of California, Berkeley. His family lost a beautiful soul who never did drugs, drank alcohol, or smoked, but spent hours with friends who did in hopes of helping them choose a better path in life. Who knows what he would have accomplished for good. Instead we're left with three losers that taxpayers have to support in prison. Yes, at least they're in prison, but . . . .

Thank you for allowing me to vent. Every day is hard, but today and tomorrow will be worse. I love you Joshua.

Joshua Anthony Hernández

Sandi

by **Liz** » Tue Jul 28, 2015 7:40 pm

(((Hugs))) and prayers for you. I can't imagine the pain.

by **gingerK** » Tue Jul 28, 2015 7:43 pm

Sandi I am so very sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine what you have gone through or are going through right now remembering this. I can only tell you that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Wish I was closer so I could help share the pain in person. You know we ladies never mind one of us venting and if it helps even a little, we are here. {{{Hugs}}} to you, until I can give you one in person next time we meet.
Kathy

by **Bethers** » Tue Jul 28, 2015 7:46 pm

((((((((((((((((((((((( Sandi )))))))))))))))))))
My heart goes out to you. There are no words, but I, as well as many others, are so very willing to listen.

by **grammynmaggie** » Tue Jul 28, 2015 7:50 pm

((((Hugs)))).... as the others said... can't even imagine the pain you've been through all these years you have to continue by going to the parole hearings but at least you can go and voice your opinion to keep these in jail where they belong so very sorry that you have to go through this

by **mtngal** » Tue Jul 28, 2015 7:52 pm

((((((((Sandi)))))))

by **OregonLuvr** » Tue Jul 28, 2015 8:56 pm

What a handsome son you made. Hope you can remember the great times and not just dwell on the unforgiveable.... . ((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))) to you.

karen

by **BirdbyBird** » Tue Jul 28, 2015 10:27 pm

Thinking of you. No words can express these emotions just hope that some help you move through the day and days... (((( hugs )))) for your weary sore heart.

by **chalet05** » Tue Jul 28, 2015 11:42 pm

Hugs and love, my friend. I cannot imagine the pain.

by **snowball** » Tue Jul 28, 2015 11:51 pm

((((hugs)))) it's all been said but know that you will be in my thoughts
and prayers .....
sheila

by **Cudedog** » Wed Jul 29, 2015 12:05 am

Sandi:

I have no words. Beautifully, if painfully, written.

Thank you for sharing.

Anne

by **MandysMom** » Wed Jul 29, 2015 3:33 am

Sandi, I am so sorry for your loss. Know I too send my hugs on this painful anniversary.
Velda

by **Queen** » Wed Jul 29, 2015 6:09 am

What a truly awful experience, I am so very sorry for your loss.

by **RitaMc** » Wed Jul 29, 2015 6:50 am

I ae no words that will lesson your pain as I cannot begin to imagine the hurt you feel. What an awful cross to bear in life. I will be with you in prayer and thoughts thru this time. Please know you are cared for by your RV family.

by **IrishIroamed** » Wed Jul 29, 2015 7:06 am

(((hugs))) Sandi. I'm so sorry you have to live with a lifetime of painful memories, and yes it is horribly unfair that the thugs are still around, although in prison. Know that you raised a wonderful son and that your personal angel is always with you in your heart.

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