I sure understand that loss of equlibrium. I cared for my Mom in my home for 6 years and even though she was unable to communicate much of that, it threw me a curve when she was gone. And that was way beyond grief. I kept thinking there were things I needed to do, but would then realize those tasks were gone. We went out to a theater as a family of 4 soon after Mom died and I kept thinking the whole time I needed to get home and do something. It takes time to adjust . I am glad you are accepting that in yourself and giving yourselves time. Best wishes in your new adventures.
Velda