Too Depressed to RV???

[mitch5252]

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[MaliasMiles]

Wow, Deb, that really makes me feel good to hear that! And it was just a flukey type thing that I got back on this post today. Especially glad you've adopted my mantra about fearless vs. fear less. It's something I still have to remind myself about almost every day, from small to large things.

To me, your recent grief, while still having to make major decisions, is mind boggling. It was wise of you to take the time to prepare as much as you could, but I know that only helps so much. I sometimes feel the same way when people have told me how inspirational I have been to them. Somewhat of a fraud because I certainly don't feel that way when I am also so capable of isolating myself away when I am in the midst of that "dark cloud" with which I am so familiar. At times like those, the last thing I feel is "I can do this!"

But you needed that time for yourself to deal with things in just your own way - certainly not to "do anything different than I am." And certainly you shouldn't judge yourself harshly for that.

When I was off the road for so long, it took a LOT of "I can do its" to get me to move even an inch, especially when I doubted that to my core sometimes. But I can tell you that your now even thinking of giving up cave dwelling and getting out and meeting people as you travel is good medicine. I firmly believe it will be good for you if you let it.

I sincerely hope our paths cross sometime. I can just tell I'd love to get to know you. You have also inspired me, as has other women on this forum.

Hugs,
Malia

[MaliasMiles]

I LOVE that icon and its message, mitch5252! That applies to us all!

[JudyJB]

Deb and others, just remember that you aren't going to drive 3,700 miles all at once, you are going to drive a few miles every day. You will get into a routine and it really becomes easy.

I was thinking today how I have been living in this very small space for almost 14 months, and I still don't feel claustrophobic or horribly bored. In fact, there are days when I just can't fit everything in. Course, my teaching takes up a considerable amount of time, but still, I don't spend my whole day every day doing that. Seeing something new all the time and keeping slowly on the move really helps prevent boredom. And there are always people who enjoy a chat. I met a couple tonight that I chatted with for quite a while. They were fun and it was so nice to meet them.

In fact, I really have to control myself and not buy books. I thought I would have tons of time to read all those books I never got around to, but I still don't have time. There is always someplace to walk or bike to, and photos to take of wildflowers, and photos to back up on my computer and post on my blog.

On the other hand, I have suffered from depression in the past and found that medications really helped. If I ever need them again, I won't hesitate to ask for them.

[AlmostThere]

I just got this website address from a post on FB. It's a humorous blog written by someone suffering from depression. It really helps explain how the depressed person is surviving day to day, and sheds light on the illness for the rest of us.

http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/

[mitch5252]

I just got this website address from a post on FB. It's a humorous blog written by someone suffering from depression. It really helps explain how the depressed person is surviving day to day, and sheds light on the illness for the rest of us.

http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/

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WOW. If I was clever enough, I could have written that in the months since George died.
Haven't found my corn yet, though - still looking.

Thanks for sharing that, Lenora! It is awesome.
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[Redetotry]

I just got this website address from a post on FB. It's a humorous blog written by someone suffering from depression. It really helps explain how the depressed person is surviving day to day, and sheds light on the illness for the rest of us.

http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/

Lenora that was an amazing blog post.

[Sandersmr]

I had been following her before she took her hiatus.