I'm so sorry for your loss, Mikey. It was a long hard road for you I know. I was caregiver for my mom till she passed, so I know how hard it can be.
But perhaps your mom touching you was not only a sign that she loved you, but also telling you that it's your time now. To be free and follow your dreams. God has a way of smoothing our paths and never gives us more than we can handle. He has now opened the road for you and it will be up to you and your hubby to decide how best to follow it. Your heart will tell you. (((hugs)).