So much good and excellent advice.
I think Pat hit it on the head. You did it all yourself in prepping for the trips, the driving, the setting up and down. But now??? Possibly without you even realizing it, G did his share too in his own way? While he couldn't contribute to the physical things he did to the mental side of it by being company for you. Now that company isn't there.
You are a strong and brave woman, I have no doubt. You will get thru this and roll on down the road to new places and things. And of course to meet up with some of the Sistahs!!!!
Grab Abby and have at it! Even if it's only to go down and bug the he77 out of Vickie!!