Not to worry - give it a little time. I dreamt of having an RV most of my adult life. I had an aunt who full-timed & I always looked up to her - a more simple lifestyle, tying the family together with stories of relatives we didn't know we had, etc...
A few months ago I almost quit looking - just tired of the whole thing, but 4 people brought vehicles to my attention that very week. Went to holy hour (church) one night & wrote out my confusion - did I really need this? what were the specifics I needed/wanted & left it in God's hands. Came home that night, went online & checked my usual ebay searchers - lo & behold, my mega-van was there. Called on it the next day, had additional pictures taken, got more info - my tough as nails brothers even approved... Long story short - bought it, flew down to FL to pick it up - drove it over 1600 miles in 3 days to bring it home - utterly exhausted & then couldn't sleep!
What the heck had I done!!!!
What was I doing with this thing in my driveway.
What possessed me...
Such an investment, when would I use it, so much to learn about maintaining it, on & on & on...
It's now making more sense...
Getting the van allowed me to drive most of the family comfortably to an event - had a blast - everyone was comfy & got to visit along the way.
My kids are delighted I have it - encouraging me to get away, take it camping, get on the road...
Figured out last week how to cover the seats so Sierra (my GS) could come with me.
Getting more & more comfortable driving it - everywhere!
I will get to travel someday - like the rest of you all... I needed to buy it while I was still working so when that big R (retirement) day comes, I'll have it.
Sometimes we just have to trust & enjoy the adventure!