it's midnight just turned off the tv so I won't get sucked into another movie or hour long show... it's been one of those days and I'm just running late... really late usually off the computer by 11 or so or at least to playing games... oh speaking of games Shirl I waste an incredible amount of time coloring on the phone it's app is happy color I think and occasionally I look at the games because there is a lot of add's on that color page only thing I don't like about it but it's free... so go with it.... I like free cell as well but it's just on the computer... the game I play each night is also on computer is called forty thieves solitaire it's similar to free cell but in my opinion harder... so my brother (he is next to me but younger in age ...I am the eldest) starts chat out with the comment I'll probably get in trouble saying this .... my sister says then don't say it.... it takes him awhile but his comment boiled done to the only one that has the time to take care of mom is yep you guess it me!!! he is going to being going through some treatments for his new "issue" but didn't go into details as to what those issues are... only fair that way we can be perhaps more understanding or more direct when it comes to seeking our Father's help... brother #2 has handicapped daughter and the found out this last trip that she has a leaking valve brother #3 still works and no wife and sister is pretty disabled herself and wouldn't be able to help visual is two women on walkers helping each other... we will know more after the visit on Tues as to what they expect... and what then I can plan... I did tell them that IF I stayed there was going to be some changes made as I didn't get to see my grandchildren very much this summer so I was going to need run away times.. I so hate having to have other's shop for me I'd like a Sat that I could just go and pitter around even go and have a pedi my #2 brother called after wards and we talked for awhile one thing we all agreed on was that the bath tub needs to be a walk in shower but then comes up the expense of it I have two brother's that have worked construction actually all three of them and my son in law could all do the work but Jackson I guess has to get it's money where it can and you have to get permits and licensed people to do the work that doesn't need licensed plumbers to do the work .... I also mentioned that I would need to do some more clean out of the room I am in as it was fine for a few months for longer not so fine... he said maybe use the other room...it's larger I hate that room it's so cluttered you can't make the bed without laying across it... and there is something in there I am sure a dried flower arrangement that the smell drives me up a wall... just hate the room other than there is a nice bed side table and lamp
I hope we figure something else out I do know this that if they say a care center she won't last 3 months... and before she goes to one we will have to do what we can to make it safe here for her... so right now I don't know if I will make it to Q this year... I hope so I had plans one of those was to get walking sticks and walk in the desert but not sure I want to walk with walking sticks in the snow... don't like snow not at all just on picture cards... 
so not happy my anniversary and youngest called to wish me happy anniversary but none of the rest... and then this oh and she didn't eat well today she just looks older part of me when I get down in the dumps thinks she won't make it out alive and part of me says if she would just be brave and get up and do more she would be able to come home... my nephew is a dr... he says that the fractures in the pelvis are really painful and take longer to heal... I wish that he could be in on that meeting but probably not a good time for him...
need to go guess not game tonight maybe one... after all who is going to send me to bed???
oh and I will not shovel the walks or drive I am too old and fat to do that..
guess I will be using a air fryer sooner than later perhaps
sheila