I remembered to say “rabbits” since I was up at midnight. I’m stressing because I leave on Monday to head to Tehachapi (east of Bakersfield) to attend a hearing for one of the guys who murdered my son Joshua. The guy’s in prison there so that’s the reason for the almost 300-mile drive from my home. This is the 3rd hearing for him over the years, and I’m worried he may be granted parole or may be released under a recent new California law allowing participants in a murder who were there but didn’t actually pull the trigger to go free. I believe he’s just as responsible: he was there; had a loaded gun; Joshua gave him all his money ($17); he wrestled with both Joshua and his friend David; he definitely contributed to the murder because his fighting could very easily have caused the shot made by his buddy to become mortal rather than just wounding.
I imagine I will be allowed to make a statement. I still have’t figured out what to say. I just wonder if the people who sit on these government panels, who like me will travel from other parts of the state to attend the hearing, are there just hoping it will be over soon so they can get back on the road and home to their families. I wonder if it would be different if the story were different and it was their child who was murdered. Thinking about their murdered child, would they want the murderer to go free? Positive thoughts/prayers would be appreciated that this criminal won’t go free to terrorize and cause so much pain to other families as he has to mine.
After the hearing I will drive south to San Diego to deliver items my best friend, who passed away on Christmas Eve, left to her two cousins. Even though I can’t afford it, but feeling so stressed about the hearing, I decided to stay in San Diego for 2 nights and will go on a 3-hour whale-watching cruise next Thursday. Then I will take two days to return home. Safe travels to all.
Sandi